He Feels Us

For the very first time in my 17 years of life, that dark thought struck me. "Death" never been whispered so close to my ears before. If my life was a tree, I'd be leafless; every little aspect seems to be falling apart from the grips of my stems. As I was waiting for Spring to come, I struggled all the way through Winter. The shivering coldness of people and the swirling wind of words were slowly absorbed through my skin to my heart and mind. How I wished I have no senses, so I would not be able to feel pain or sadness; I wished those words do not exist in my dictionary. I could keep wishing until the world stop turning, still they could never be granted.

Sounds depressing? Yes, I was depressed. If I were to describe it economically, it would be the hyperinflation during recession. Scientifically, it would be a 10.0 Richter earthquake. Artistically, a pitch black poster. How else can I transfer my feeling to you? I guess no one could ever relate exactly to me. You may have faced a worse situation than me, but when you are having a problem, don't you always think that it's the worst ever? For me, yes, I care no more of how simple or easy people think my life is.

But, one morning, I was humming the song "Jesus, lover of my soul". Part of the lyrics was, " ... though my world may fall, I'll never let you go; my savior, my closest friend.." God whispered softly, " Vanny, I feel you.", "Vanny, don't you ever forget this friend of yours, me."

Yes, I might have lost what I once have, I might be bombarded with bad news one after another, and I might be waking up, dragging myself to go through another day. No one can understand except Jesus. He died on the cross, feeling all sort of torment, depression, sadness, and all the bad things you could ever possibly imagined. He went through them all just to understand how it feels to be us, human, whom He was saving. He doesn't only understand me, but you; Yes! YOU!!! :D

So, through everything, you would always have your bestest friend understanding you. If you do not have one, you should start building your friendship with my bestest friend, Jesus :)