Friday, June 18, 2010

Running Back and Forth

Reading my own diary entries might bring me back to those days when no one's there to catch my fall, but it makes me feel more grateful knowing how better off I am right now.
People have awesome testimonies about how God has changed their lives.
Some have survived from deadly diseases, some have been healed, some have been got out from smoking, drugs, gambling, and many others which were once seems to be impossible.
praise the Lord, for He has made all things possible as long as we believe.
Well, for once you might think your lives are all in one beautiful piece, just perfect.
I have been at that state before, where I thought I am strong enough to face everything.
It's not that hard to recall all those stigmatization, spiritual destitution, and that endless lonesome lullaby. At times, I can still feel those memories digging holes in my heart, creating a deep emptiness. People may simply say that my life was perfect, and I am just greedy enough thinking it could have been better. Those sayings sound very ironic to me till' I felt like screaming out all those devastation I was feeling.
They may think I always something to prevail.
They have freedom to say how good my life is, having to be able to laugh all day long.
They tell each other how they wished they could be as lucky as I am.
I had no hands to hold on to, no shoulder to lean on.
I felt imprisoned in my own stage of disguise.
I was not lucky, at least I tried to pursue luckiness.
Oh, they were wrong then; however, I'll be glad to say that they're right now.
I have not experienced any phenomenal miraculous thing in my life, yet miracles happen every single time I believe that God is with me.
And I am not lucky for having God in my life, for luckiness is probable, God is certain and sure.
Luckiness is only for a number of people, God is for everyone.
All that He asks of you is to believe and receive.
Just open up your heart and let Him live in you.



No comments:

Post a Comment